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eulogy
eulogy ! how can I say goodbye  Leaves fell from strong branches, alive—would grow again and again. Some aren't so lucky, how it could be so much easier to be someone...something else. Perhaps you think about what you would be, or even dream about it. If you could, what would you be?
These leaves cascaded over disturbed earth that was watered with the tears of those who love, cherish, and will miss. The doll stood, silence, cold and pale. Tear-filled orbs, refusing to let one fall, she wouldn't blink, couldn't move, couldn't speak.
“Veronica... say something.” said the funeral director and the depressed lamb stared into the distance, feeling the cool breeze upon her face. The tears began to fall, leaving river traces behind. A tremble, her lungs quivering as she cleared her throat. Alone, felt so alone.
Rain drenched the grounds and fed the flowers left at each resting place. Veronica licked her lips and with an aching heart and sorrow filled eyes she began to speak.
“I'm not good at saying how I feel... that will never change. Mama, I can't believe you are gone, I regret all the pain I caused you. I miss you so much already and I know I can never repay you for everything you have done for me and Jared. I know we were bad kids, I know things were tough for every one of us. You had it the worst, and I did nothing, all that time I... we let it happen. Until that day...”
Uncontrollable sobbing--
“I did it for us, I hope you can forgive me. I loved you, my sweet mother... I do love you, but it is too late now. I never got to tell you. I love you, I am you... I love you mama.”
She threw herself to the ground in front of the black casket her mother rested in. Digging her digits into the dirt, losing herself. Wanting to be with her mother, just one last chance to see her again. To hug her and smell her shampoo, to listen to her tell her she could be something someday if she just tried hard enough.
Left alone... nobody else even showed. Alone.
“I love you mama, I hope you knew.”
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