October 31st 2010
Halloween night 11:00 pm
No Candy for V
“Just calm down, we are only trying to help you. We are going to give you something to relax you. Nobody is going to hurt you... you're safe here. Okay?” the nurse pleaded with Veronica while the girl was in a panic and acting irrational. Restrained at the wrists, the girl cried with an intensiveness, unrecognizable ramblings as she balled her fists tightly and squirmed upon the hospital bed. “It's going to be alright, just calm down.” the compassionate nurse said yet again, this time getting Veronica's attention. Their eyes met and held; the woman could see the pain within her dark hues. How much she had been through and how much she needed help. The nurse gave Veronica a small smile and gazed into her eyes just as she stuck the young punk in the thigh with a needle. “Just a little something to help your panic attack dear.” she said calmly and quickly made her exit out of the room.
Heart racing, shortness of breath and stiffness in her neck, Veronica continued to cry. Her sinuses began to clog and she pulled at the restraints. Raising her knees under the hospital sheet, it was so thin why to bother having it to begin with. Veronica let her head lay back upon the pillow, tears ran down her bruised cheeks and pumped from her swollen eyes. White of her right orb a shade of red, blood capillaries and proteins busted to a point of permanent vision impairment. Lips in the same condition, mangled, bruised here... and there. Dirt under her nails along with dried blood with twigs in her hair. It was obvious by the visual she had been through a great deal.
Soon, she settled down; though her knees swayed back and forth and her arms began to jerk at different times all on their own. As if her brain hadn't given them the signal to move but yet they are. It was a strange feeling Veronica couldn't explain even if she tried. She suddenly got that “I want to jump out of my skin” feeling. Uneasiness, an unbelievable restlessness; again she squirmed in bed and tried to free her hands in which was impossible. Moments later, unable to stand the side effects of what was injected into her thigh, she was able to reach the emergency call button for the nurse.
About thirty minutes later, the nurse returned with a soft grin in place, almost like she had Botox and was only able to smile, nothing less. It was contagious actually, it almost made Veronica want to return such a facial gesture. “Please ma'am, I am having Akathisias from whatever you gave me.” Veronica informed with a sincere expression. The nurse nodded, understanding this side effect and how uncomfortable it would be making her. “I will bring Ativan for that, but, only if you tell us what happened.” the nurse spoke with a sneakiness to her voice and at this point, what did it matter if Veronica stayed quiet, she was dead either way.
“Al..right...” the trembling girl nodded up at the nurse, her brows furrowed, her pupils dilated-black holes. The nurse then went to retrieve the medication and not too long later returned to the room Veronica was being held in. Holding up a filled syringe in her face, the nurse demanded. “Tell me!” Veronica squirmed, her legs jerked sporadically, she really wanted that Ativan.
“Okay, okay... I got all dressed up to go out for Halloween. I hadn't been out of the house in about a week, in and out of bed mostly, not doing much as my depression had taken over me. It was time for my car on the roller-coaster to take a nosedive. Anyway, I got invited to a Halloween party from a friend and it was supposed to be pretty legit. I must admit I did a bunch of drugs, I don't even remember what all I did. Feeling high, high, so high... I started dancing with this guy. I don't know the guy, but he was kinda cute and wanted to show me a good time. Thought that would be alright so I left with this guy, he was being really nice and saying sweet things as we danced and got me a drink several times before we left from the house.
I am not sure how, but, I ended up in a car with a bunch of guys. About five and they were speaking a different language that I didn't understand. The guy and I started kissing and I was on his lap in the back. I remember him touching me all over and kissing my neck. All I remember after that was waking up in a small room all alone, naked and afraid, hanging from the ceiling by a rope and a hook that tucked under my tied up hands.
A piece of fabric wrapped around my head, gagging me slightly and bringing me to full alertness. The room was red and I felt pain, I looked down to find fresh blood streaming from big slices up and down my upper legs. My thighs quivered and I was going into shock, I could see myself in a mirror before me and I began crying in fear. I couldn't feel my feet anymore, nor my hands; I didn't want to make to much noise in-case it would lure somebody to come in. I must have had a streak of luck or something I don't know. But my wrists were bloody and somehow, someway... My hands slipped out of the restraints and my broken body fell a few feet to the floor.
A pool of my own blood upon the floor, I fell right into it and rolled onto my back to rest for a moment. I knew I didn't have long. I tried to stand up and couldn't right away, the pain was too intense, my thighs were still bleeding. So, instead, I crawled across the floor and strangely enough the door to the room was unlocked and so was another door at the end of the hall that led outside. I struggled through the night to get to a road where I eventually was picked up. By that nice man that brought me in. So, now here I am, that is all that I know, I don't know anything else. I won't be able to tell you where it is I... I...” she began to get upset again, anxiety.
“Alright, alright just relax.” the nurse whispered and gave her the medicine intravenously. It calmed her down almost immediately and Veronica fell asleep without another peep. The nurse still kept a smile, covered the poor girl up and exited her room to document that the medication was given. Minutes later as the lady stood at her computer station, another nurse came to let her know an interesting fact. Veronica's brother Jared, her emergency contact was there to inform them to not believe any stories that she comes up with. Veronica got into a fight earlier in the night, she made those cuts herself and needs to be admitted this time.
