ac 24: lost and found.

The days after being rescued, Ayla’s sole focus had been acting as though she were fine. Not only for herself but for Eda too. Since being home, Ayla has had a hard time sleeping, the events of them being lost flooding her mind. Her fears of leaving Eda playing at the forefront. The only way she’s found herself able to sleep is having Eda in the bed with her and it helps that the small girl doesn’t want to leave her mom as well. She’s had moments however, where she finds herself waking up in the middle of the night, watching her daughter sleep and thinking of the possibilities of how Eda’s life could be very different right now. At first, the thought of food only made Ayla want to barf, but now her appetite has resumed as though nothing happened. 

The thing Ayla is most grateful for is being back home with Eda and being in her home. Being home made Ayla feel like she had some sort of security back. For a bit afterwards, Ayla hated the idea of leaving the house, although she knew she needed to. At least for the sake of work. There were days she didn’t feel like going and on those days, she found herself cooped up inside working on another painting or reading a book. They calmed her like nothing else could, especially when Eda was asleep. She’s also incredibly grateful to be able to take showers, realizing that was something she had initially taken for granted. 

Though she has no ill feelings towards the leaders about what happened, she does wish they could have been rescued sooner. A lot of the people she cared for were injured and needed help. She knows there will be several instances of “They left us out there on purpose.” but Ayla chooses to be optimistic and believe that they got to them as quickly as they could.