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malnourished.
*tw: anorexia // this piece is one that describes lennon's past battles with an eating disorder, please be cautious if this can be triggering to you.
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malnourished skin clings to fragile bones, desperately trying to make a home out of the carcass of a once loved body; it begs for soft touches, peppered kisses, and for just an ounce of admiration - a big change compared to the constant negative self-talk, broken promises, and lack of warmth it receives on a daily basis.
i never thought my body would turn out this way; broken and battered from years of internal abuse. i spent so many nights wishing i could fall in love with myself, wishing i cared enough to change how i view the reflection that stares back in the mirror.
i was always too this, too that. not enough this, not enough that; my choice in words inflicted more wounds than anyone else ever could.
i look at the way my skin dips and curves over deserted valleys, and for once, i feel defeated.
i want to love myself; i want to look at the woman before me and admire her strength. i want to admire her perseverance, and her determination to be better to herself. to love the way her body hugs to mountains of fat rather than the bones that threaten to break skin.
i don’t know when that day will come, but i’ll be damned if i allow this mistreatment to go on any longer.
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