To Russia No love

Walking into her home she could tell something wasn’t right, Once again someone had been in there, She knew that smell, The smell of whiskey and cigarettes a smell she used to find comfort in now only fear he had been in her home again she stood in the middle of the room as she heard the footsteps behind her Closing her eyes and squeezing them shut hoping it was all a nightmare and he wasn’t really here willing him to be gone didn’t help she heard him step closer opening her eyes now she scanned the area, She could run or stay put if he wanted to kill her he could have done it already but she knew killing her would be too easy he wanted her to suffer she couldn’t take the silence any more “What do you want Nik?” He was closer now but she still hadn’t turned to face him “Oh Candy pants” his voice soft as his arm went around her waist giving her a sort of hug from behind resting his chin on her shoulder Candice felt sick this man she once loved so much f***ed her up so much that now she felt sick to his mere presence, Did she love him still? Absolutely yeah she always would but she wasn’t in love with him there was a huge difference.

“Candy pants” he repeated again “Let’s go home, You and me, F*** all these people just you and me again, You’d like that wouldn’t you?” Her brow raised at his words what was he talking about now if he knew her at all he’d know she wanted to be as far away from him as humanly possible he turned her around to face him now still in his arms as he stepped them towards the wall pinning her between his body and the concrete wall behind her “Nicky please move” she asked him “Go, Please” nothing but begging in her tone she was tired all fight gone she couldn’t keep this up and she wasn’t going too anymore it was exhausting a soft smile on Nik’s face “Oh baby we are going home, Russia! remember when it was just you and me, no work, Nothing but us? Those were you happiest days wasn’t they?” His hand lifted to her face his index finger slowly running down her cheek “Say yes Candice, Let’s be happy one last time” she shook her head “I am not going”.

Well that was a mistake to say the least she seen the colour drain from his face and the sheer anger replace anything that was there before but for once he didn’t strike her maybe that is what scared her more he did however lift his hand into her hair giving it a tug as his body pushed up against hers his lips next to her ear she kept deadly still as his words came out “Oh you will, Because I’ve been watching you Candice I know everyone you’ve been around recently and I’ll kill anyone you’ve ever even looked at. Don’t f***ing test me!” With that he moved away from her letting her go, kissing her lips softly before stepping away and placing her plane ticket on the side “We have a job to do and we leave tomorrow” games, it was always head games with him but now she would have to go because she knew he would make good on what he had just said she didn’t want anyone she loved getting hurt because of her.

She hadn’t slept much last night after Nik had showed himself into her home again she didn’t sleep well anymore but even less so after he had been, A soft yawn as she waited at the gate in the airport she wasn’t looking her best a tracksuit and her sunglasses to hide her bloodshot eyes was what she wore she stood impatiently waiting to be called she hated waiting then she felt him once again his arm around her like he still had the right to do that a kiss on her cheek she cringed at this “Flight 411 to Russia is now boarding” she sighed as Nik took her hand in his pulling her towards the gate like a small excited child “Lets go baby!” He sound like a small excited child too she tried to pull her hand free but he had a good grip on her and she was exhausted nothing about this trip felt good not even the part of remembering the feeling of home, On the plane now she felt even more anxious “How are you feeling about the flight?” Nik asked her knowing she didn’t like flying why was he acting like he miraculously grew a heart over night? She scoffed at him “Hopeful, I’m hopeful that this plane will crash and we will die, Mine will be quick.. Yours? With a lot of suffering! Fingers crossed! /baby/“ to this he laughed and replied “Russia here we come!”